It's a beautiful post. Should have a NSFW warning though --- I am in tears! Thank you for sharing your experience. It really resonates with me as my obgyn has informed me that the complications leading to the emergency c-section with my first-born will likely re-occur, and that we should just schedule a date for baby 2. I feel like I'm missing out on a rite of passage, but your post is a glimmer of a reminder that *how* baby is born doesn't change the passage of me becoming a mother. I hope that makes sense. Thank you.